on Wednesday, 02 November 2011 at 00:40
I think I have to make the precise choice of the absolute meaning which could serve the purpose of being a great source of comfort and support to begin with; so that I would be able to express, confess and furthermore shed my tears as I have never been able to do so for the last few years. . I would consider “Tonight I can write the saddest lines”; But strictly and certainly for tonight only, that too because I was genuine and sincere but fortunately failed to pretend on a regular basis. I am happy that I have been shunned and ignored over a period of not less than one year not because of any sort of mistakes of mine; but because of the ‘misdeeds’ that I never ignored and avoided them and their discrimination and favouritism. I am sad only because I believe that I didn’t deserve such an abrupt end that appears to be a failure. But I am extremely delighted to realise that this is a deferred success and an intentionally postponed triumph. Still I am sad on behalf of my innate weaknesses and for the sake of my revered emotions.!! even if I am happy here at a safe distance; it irritates me to hear from the lonely warehouse and dark christmas room in my memory that "we know all the tricks to bring you the treats"..!!! and my memories will never stop haunting me as it never did before.
